IM DONE WITH THE WORLD

WOW IT NEVER FAILS IT SEEMS LIKE EVER THING THAT CAN GO WRONG DOES GO WRONG MAN....... IT'S BAD ENOUGH THAT SENIOR TRIP AND PROM HAS PUT ME IN DEBT BUT NOW I HAVE TO BUY A GRADUATION DRESS THAT I MIGHT NOT EVEN WEAR BEACUESE OF A PAPER THAT I HANDED IT IN LATE UGH IM SO MAD THEN TO TOP IT ALL OFF SOMEONE BROKE MY FONE AND IT CANT GET FIXED FOR FREE I HAVE TO PAY FOR IT AND I DONT HAVE THE MONEY TO PAY FOR IT BUT IMMA SEE IF I CAN GET THE SKOOL TO MAKE THE PERSON THAT BROKE IT TO PAY FOR IT OR AT LEAST HALF BUT WATEVER IM DONE CARING ABOUT EVERYTHING SKOOL BOI's work life in general

SENIOR TRIP

WERE OUT OF HERE FLORIDA HERE WE COME BOI ME AND MY PPL GOIN HAVIES

SENIOR TRIP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YES THE WEEK HAS COME WHEN I CAN SAY BY TO THE BOOKS AND HELLO TO THE RIDES AND FUN TIMES WITH MY FRIENDS IN FLORIDA. ON MAY 11TH I WILL BE TURNING MY BAG IN TO THE SCHOOL SO IT CAN BE CHECKED . AND THEN THE 12TH I WILL BE BOARDING A PLANE TO FUN .. MY SENIOR TRIP IS HERE AND I STILL HAVE SOME TOUCHING UP TO DO BUT IM READY MENTALLY . I CANT WAIT FOR ME AND MY FRIENDS TO JUST LET GO OF ALL THE STRESS THAT HIGH SCHOOL BRING AND HAVE SO MUCH FUN I HOPE AT THE END OF THE TRIP I WILL HAVE HAD DAYS I WILL REMEMBER AND NIGHT I WILL NEVER FORGET........................

COLLEGE

YES IM A SENIOR AND GRADUATION IS ALMOST HERE BUT IM NOT THAT EXICTED BECAUSE OF COLLEGE. I WANTED TO GO TO A FOUR YEAR COLLEGE BUT IT SEEMS I HAVE TO GO TO A COMMUNITY COLLEGE. MY SAT SCORES WERE GOOD TO ME I GOT A 1260 ON MY FIRST TRY AND HAVENT GONE BACK TO TAKE IT AGAIN.. THE THING THAT HELD ME BACK FROM GOING ON TO MONTCLAIR SATE WAS MY GRADES .....THIS YEAR I STARTED OFF WITH A BIG CASE OF SENIORIOTIS I WHICH I REALLY DID NOT CARE IN MY MIND I HAD IT MADE....WRONG MY GRADES WERE ALWAYS LOW WHICH MESSED UP MY GPA. SO FOR THE NEXT TWO YEARS I WILL BE AT A COMMUNITY COLLEGE WHILE MOST OF MY FRIENDS WILL BE LOVIN/HATING THE TRUE COLLEGE LIFE. IT KINDA SUCKS SEEING YOUR FRIENDS OF FAMILY MEMBERS GETTIN IN TO BIG COLLEGES AND THEN THEY ASK YOU WERE DID U GET IN TO AND U SAY OHHHH IM GOING TO CCC OR ACCC LIK BOOOO I FEEL LIKE A BIG FAILURE..... WHAT REALLY IS EATING ME UP IS THAT I HAVE TWO PPL IN MY FAMILY THAT ARE GRADUATING THIS YEAR ONE IS THREW MARRRIAGE BUT THE OTHER IS A BLOOD RELATIVE AND ALL MY LIFE I HAD TO COMPEAT WITH HER EVEN IF SHE OFR ANYONE ELSE IN MY FAMILY KNEW.. SHE WAS ALWAYS GOOD AT THIS AND GOOD AT THAT AND SHE ALWAYS HAD THE BIGGER AND BETTER THINGS SHE WAS SKINNER WITH MORE HAIR BETTER GRADES AND IT SEEMED LIKE EVEN IF THEY WERENT TRYING TO RUB IT IN MY FACE THEY DID. MY MOM WOULD ALWAYS TALK ABOUT HERE BUT I NEVER SEEN MY UNCLES AND SUNTS TALK ABOUT ME LIKE THAT NOW IM GOING TO A STINKIN COUMMUNITY COLLEGE WERE AS SHE GOING TO A FOUR YEAR COLLEGE AND I KNO THE PRAISE FOR HER WONT STOP AT THE END OF HIGH SCHOOL I KNOW WHEN SHE HITS COLLEGE AD DOING THINGS I CANT RIGHT NOW THAT I WILL HERE IT AGAIN SHE THIS AND SHE THAT....................... SO IM HOPING AND PRAYING THAT WEN IM DONE WITH THIS COMUNIOTY COLLEGE I CAN MAKE IT IN TO MONTCLAIR STATE AND START A LIFE I WILL NEVER FORGET

32DAYS UNTILL GRADUATION

THIS YEAR HAS BEEN THE WORST FOR ME AND IN THE BEGINING I WAS HOPING IT WOULD NEVER END... NOT NOW I CANT WAIT UNTILL JUNE 19TH WHEN MY NAME IS CALLED AND I RECIEVE THAT PAPER SAYING IM DONE HIGH SCHOOL... THE TEACHERS ARE SLOWLLLY GETTING DRIVING ME UP THE WALL NOW ITS JUST THE LITTLE THINGS THAT MAKES WANT TO GET OUT OF HERE. THERE IS NOTHING TO DO CLASSES ARE POINTLESS AT THIS TIME BECAUSE TEACHERS DONT WANT TO TEACH AND STUDENTS DONT WHAT TO LEARN. SO IN CLASSS ALL I HEAR IS BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH WOMP WOMP WOMP WOMP WOMP WOMP WOMP WOMP!!!!!!!!! THEN THE BELL RINGS LATE LIKE CLASSES TO ME USED TO FLYY BY NOW IT FEELS LIKE IM IN CLASS FOR LIKE HOURS AND THEY WONT LET ME OUT ............... THE ONLY GOOD THING THAT IS HAPPENING RIGHT NOW IS MY SENIOR TRIP IS HERE NEXT WEEK I WONT HAVE TO DEAL WITH THE BORING TEACHERS AND THE SLOW CLASSES BECAUSE I WILL BE IN FLORIDA HAVING THE TIME OF MY LIFE WITH MY FRIENDS... BUT AS ALWAYS SOMETHING IS NOT GOING TO GO RIGHT HOPEFULLY WE CAN GET OVER THAT... THE BAD THING ABOUT IT IS THE TIME IN FLORDIA IS GOING TO GO SO FAST AS I WISH MY SKOOL DAYS WOULD. THEN THERSE PROM BUT AS OF RIGHT NOW THERE IS MORE WORRY THEN HAPPINESS ABOUT THAT I HAVE NO DRESS NO HAIR STYLE NO HOTEL FOR PROM WEKEND NO WAY TO PROM WEEKEND NO DATE(WHICH I REALLY DONT NEED BUT IT WOULD MAKE ME LOOK BETTER) LITTLE MONEY IF I COULD GO BACK TO LAST SUMMER I WOULD HAVE SAVED HALF OF MY CHECKS SO I COULD HAVE SPENDING MONEY BUT GOD WORKS IN CRAZY WAYS AND I HOPE AND PRAY HE WORKS IN MY FAVOR.............................

Spring Break is over :(

today we came back to school and for my first two periods we just talked about how our break and what we did....... well i had a good break you can say but it got even better at the end when i got my summer job back. a lot of people thank working at clementon park is wack but for me it was too fun.. maybe because i was working with 3 of my fav ppl TYANA,RADIAH AND,ADRIANNA....... we had mad fun just joking around. people seem to think its below them but its not.... i workin the games department and that just screams funnnn.... when you work there u meet a lot of cool ppl i wouldnt trade my 7.15 job in for a 9.15 job because in this job you get paid in money and friendship also you have a place were u can have fun not many jobs provide that im ready to end school get my deploma and work work work this summer .......................................

What's inside is different from the outside!!!!!

Did you ever wonder who a person is.... it seems that society has us looking on the outside and not on the inside. we used to do both but know if they look a certain way then that's how they r to you for life. when really the meanest looking person could in the inside be the most caring person. I'm not saying that i don't do it as well but people have their categories and they have a way of sorting them out. i wonder how people view me because i am big i must be greedy,nasty,lazy and ugly.....
I'm not i do like to eat don't get me wrong but i don't have to eat every five Min's like ppl think I'm not nasty, i like to get out and do things so I'm not lazy and i know for d**m sure know i m not ugly. so for people to look at me with disgust and ignorance check your self out first because in the long run the way my life has been helps me see other ppls views. which will get me very far IN THE INSIDE I'M A VERY CARING AND HUMBLE PERSON I TRY TO GET ALONG WITH EVERYONE I DO FOR PPL MORE THAN I DO FOR MY SELF SO WHEN YOU SEE ME ON THE STREET AND YOU LOOK OVER AT ME WITH IGNORANCE AND DISGUST KNOW THAT YOU ARE THE ONE MISSING OUT ON KNOW A GREAT BEAUTIFUL PERSON........................................

TGIF

omg it's Friday and I'm glad i get to chill and it's GETTING CLOSER TO SPRING BREAK.....

It's not been a great Friday but I'm glad this week is coming to a end
the one thing I'm scared of is history i have a history paper due on Monday and a test on wed i need to get good grades to pass this marking period and to make sure i graduate but imma do all i can and study till the sun goes down and the stars come back up i hope it goes my way only( god knows what is in store for me!!!!!!!!!!!!)

MOTHER TROUBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wow i dont understand my mom at all.. she wants me to respect her but it seems she never respects me . i thought it was you give it to get it i guess not in her world .. i have a big project?history paper due and i dont have a computer at home so i acame over to my cousins house i have been going oer there everyother weekend since the end od feb and to day my mom gets upset... she asked me 'WHY DIDNT YOU DO YOUR REPORT LAST NIGHT ' well i guess she thought i was coming home saturday but i told her i was staying the weekend i dont knowwhat to do ... i wonder if she likes to see me in the house all by my self with no oe to chill with not being and 18 year old teenager..... i an see if i went out parting instead of starting my project but i didnt all i did was go to walmart... for goodness sake im 18 and i understand i still live in her house but im really getting tired of living my shy life of not doin anything and she's not helping some of my shy problems do stem from her like how i dont always ask for help of stuff even though i know i need it because when i would ask her ,, her response is always nasty im stuck in a rock and a hard place. i dont whant to move out because life is hard and i dont have the money or the resources but im tired of being treated like crap and a nobody whaty to do what to do?????????????????????????????

My Lyfe right now

i just read a blog from one of my close friends and she was saying how her a a group of friends got together to chill ... well while reading that post i relized thatim a real stick in the mud i dont go out i dont pary i dont chill over friends house and i dont even call or talk on the fone with them..... i guess it's because im always scared that someone is going to say something bad about me and its gonna hurt. i have a close friend that is also a cousin and she asked me why i alwasy turn down an invite somewhere but always wants to be invited i used to say that i want to be thought about or that someone wants to hang wit me but now i realise that i dont know why i do that.now that my legg is messed up my life really sux i stay in the house all day and dont do nuttin. i wanna change and go out and party like others but when i think about the past i get scared cuz i know how it is wen ppl talk trash im a big girl and ppl see that as a open door for a fun tyme to talk about me.. i guess i need to stop worring about what ppl say but its hard.... i hope i get over it by prom cuz i wanna havies that weekend boiiiiiii

What's inside is different from the outside!!!!

Did you ever wonder who a person is.... it seems that society has us looking on the outside and not on the inside. we used to do both but know if they look a certain way then that's how they r to you for life. when really the meanest looking person could in the inside be the most caring person. I'm not saying that i don't do it as well but people have their categories and they have a way of sorting them out. i wonder how people view me because i am big i must be greedy,nasty,lazy and ugly.....
I'm not i do like to eat don't get me wrong but i don't have to eat every five Min's like ppl think I'm not nasty, i like to get out and do things so I'm not lazy and i know for d**m sure know i m not ugly. so for people to look at me with disgust and ignorance check your self out first because in the long run the way my life has been helps me see other ppls views. which will get me very far IN THE INSIDE I'M A VERY CARING AND HUMBLE PERSON I TRY TO GET ALONG WITH EVERYONE I DO FOR PPL MORE THAN I DO FOR MY SELF SO WHEN YOU SEE ME ON THE STREET AND YOU LOOK OVER AT ME WITH IGNORANCE AND DISGUST KNOW THAT YOU ARE THE ONE MISSING OUT ON KNOW A GREAT BEAUTIFUL PERSON........................................

how could you

i don't like to get played . and today i feel lik i did . one of my friends told me her friends cuz thought i was cute. but i didnt pay any mind cuz i know how dudes r so thats why i stay away from dudes sometymes they always have something bad to say and i aint the skinnest thing out there. but when she showed me his pix i told him in a txt that he was cute it took him a while to txt back "WHat" but i didnt care i kinda figured that was gone happen i just feel she got my head all big for a dude that didnt lik me and it hurt then i find out he really liked her other cuz so its werid thats why i dont go out and party or meet new ppl but it just suxx

The best day ever ~March 11th 1991~

tomorrow is my big 18 boii im happy that i9m finally 18 but like everyone says it just lik your 17 in some ways. but im just happy its my b-day and stuff now that I'm 18 i can work longer hours and do stuff with out my mom consent . the one thing i want do is get my second hole in my ears and then the bar in the top i want my nose done and later on in the Summer i want my tongue done. yea i know everyone has that done but ive wanted mine done since i was lik 10-12 years old because my sister had it and i thought it was so cute. so i aint a BIT-TER. well i dont know what imma do on my birthday but i hope ihave fun might chill wit the bettays

This week (HSPA)

My weekend was great it started off on Saturday i had to go to my cousin's house to use the computer. i had heard that the financial aid paper was due by march the 1st. so i go and fill this thing out on the computer just to find out it's not no where near due. Well after i lifted that weight off my shoulders i began to play the ps3 with my cousin he spanked me in this fighting game then my we started to play grand theft auto IV we ate and then i found out that i was staying the night it was fun. the next day we did the same thing just stayed in the house and chill. Then it started to snow. i love the snow but my big cousin doesn't so i said the night for another 2 days because we didn't have school on the 2ND and today was a delayed opening thanks to the HSPA. I hope all the juniors do well because if i would have failed i would of had a mental break down. a lot of people try to scare kids with the hspa but they don't realize that it could hurt them more then it could help then.some people take pressure different. so for the rest of the week i get to come In late YAAAAAYYYYYYYYY lol

TY'ANA STY MITCHELL

IF YOU DONT KNO THIS GURL IS MY BETTAY. SHE IS ONE OF THE GOOFESTS FRIENDS I HAVE THATS WHY WE LOVE HER. TYANA IS ALWAYS ASKING WHY HER NAME IS NOT IN A BLOG WELL HERE YOU GO TY I GAVE YOU YOUR OWN. TY IS LIKE THE COOLEST FRIEND I GOT SHE IS LOVING CARING AND HUMBLE WE MET IN THE EIGHT GRADE AND IT'S BEEN FUN TYMES EVERY SINCE THEN . WEVE HAD LUCH TOGETHER WERE SHE WOULD MAKE ME GET HER FOOD OR GYM TOGETHER WHERE I WOULD DRAG HER AROUND THE GYM OR SPANISH WERE WE DIDNT KNOW WHAT WE WERE TALIKN BOUT OR EVEN ENGLISH WERE SHE WOULD LAUGH AT ANYJOKE LOL I LOVE HER TO DEATH WE HAVE STOOD UP FOR EACH OTHER WORKED TOGETHER AND HAD MAD FUN TOGETHER(BETTAY CHRISTMAS) THIS IS A FRIEND I HOPE I NEVER LOSE. TY MAKES LIFE INTERSETING BECAUSE SHE HAS 17 PERCINGS AND IS GOING TO GET 4 MORE AND SHE DOES NOT CARE WHAT PEOPLE THINK. SHE HAS TAUGHT ME SO MUCH AND IM FOREVER GREAT FULL I KNO PEOPLE SAY DONT BE A FOLLOWER BE A LEADER WELL IF I WAS A FOLLOWER I WOULD FOLLOW HER . SHE IS A VERY HUMBLE PERSON AND IS NOT IN MY EYES NEGATIVE . PEOPLE HATE ON HER BECAUSE SHE IS BEAUTIFUL AND SMART BUT IF YOU WERE TO MEET HER YOU COULDNT DO ANYTHING BUT LOVE HER LIKE I DO WELL HERE YOU GO TY YOUR OWN BLOG AND EVERYTHING I SAID WAS TRUE I LOVE YOU MUCH YA LIK A BIG SIS TO ME SO WHEN THE SCHOOL YEAR ENDS I HOPE YOU KEEP IN TOUCH WITH ME CUZ LIFE WOULDNT BE THE SAME WITH OUT YA CRAZY SELF LOV YA MUCH YA SOGGY BEAR KIWI QUIANA!!!!!!!!!<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<3's>

A baby needs a HEART

A Portland family is fighting for the life of their baby boy, who needs a heart transplant or will die. This was sad the baby didn't even get to start his life before it ends you would think that hospitals would be rushing to help this baby NOT there is a 1.5 million dollar price tag on the heart he needs, Rejected by the hospitals that could save his life, 10-week-old Laith Dougherty can't even get on a waiting list for a new heart.

Laith was born early and initially needed help breathing and for other complications. But his mother said he went home after eight days and seemed healthy until they noticed weeks later that he did not seem to be eating as much as he should. Further tests eventually revealed the baby had a congenital heart defect. Doctors told the family the baby's heart is too weak for surgery and the only option for survival is a heart transplant. The parents do have health insurance but it doesn't cover transplants. This story,when heard on the news was hard to hear. I have eight nieces and nephews and many little cousins i would hate to have to see them suffer. I don't know why the insurance company can't bend there plan or add it to there plan. people now a days make me mad because they get mad when females have abortions or give there kids up but isn't that what the hospital and the insurance company is doing they are killing a human being that has done nothing wrong . All they are worried about is there money but they would not like it if someone didn't do all they could to save there child. This is just like the the movie JOHN Q i m in some type of problem because my knee as you may know needs to get better but for it to get fixed i need to get an MRI now that i don't have insurance( because it didn't come through yet) my mom has to pay 1200 dollars for it. i don't understand why these things cost so much . people say that money is not everything but i disagree because if my mom didn't have that money i would be hurting and my knee would get worse and with out this 1.5 mill this baby will die and an innocent life will be taken but the doctors and insurance company don't see that. i think life is a beautiful thing and if the doctors let this baby die it is as bad as pulling the trigger of a gun. i hope the best for this mother and the family i hope that the parents don't have to decide how to kill there child or have to bury their child because i believe the child is supposed to bury the parents I WISH THE BEST FOR THE FAMILY:(

THE END OF MY SENIOR YEAR (TEAR)

WOW I did not know that my senior year was going to go by this fast . it really did not hit me untill last night. I was on my fone looking at my myspace. I want to check out my comments and decided to look at my old ones. WHY DID I DO THAT. When i looked at my comments i ended up tearing up. Im really going to miss all of my friends and the times we had. It seems that through the last 4-8 years me and some of my close friends have driffed apart. I don't like that let me give you some examples. My friend TORRIN, i love him so much. we have known each other i guess since the 6th grade but we became good friends in the 7th and then even better friends in the 8th. now i feel like we dont even talk like that anymore i consider him a big brothe to me. Now we are older and in our senior year and i see him every once in a while. Then there is Kapre no lie is like one of my closest friends (like fam) we have known each other since the 2nd grade and i call her mom and sis my family.then something happen she moved not far but far enough. i planed on graduating with her and going through our senior year together but since she moved she has to go to a new school. i miss her so much and it seems like we never talk anymore. Then theres RADIAH , ERICA , ASHIA , AND MANY MORE. I DO UNDERSTAND THAT LIFE HAS TAKEN US TO DIFFERENT PLACES BUT WHY SO FAR AWAY FRIEND SHIP MEANS ALOT TO ME . IT'S IMPORTANA BECAUSE WHAT DO YOU HAVE IF YOU DON T HAVE FRIENDS TO TALK TO. I JUST HOPE IN THE LONG RUN I WILL GET TO GOP BACK TO THE WAY THINGS WERE NOT ALL TOGETHER BUT FRIENDS WISE IT HAS DAWNED ON ME THAT MY SENIOR YEAR IS ENDING AND THAT I MIGHT NOT SEE THEM ANYMORE I HOPE THATS NOT HOW IT GOES DOWN.........................................

YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOUR HAVE TILL IT'S GOING

On Feb-10-09 i was having a good day. untill gym came we were playing one of my fav games called knockout. well i didnt want to get knocked out of the game son i went running for the ball. as i put my left legg down i heard this familiar noise it was my knee again. If you didnt already know in november during the senior vs junior powderpuff game i fell and hurt my knee bad and then again in jaunary. so this was the third time i did it. well this time was the worse out of all three i hurt it really bad . it hurt so bad that i cried when i had to walk to go to the bathroom. So a couple days later i went to the ER again and they gave me a x-ray which showed that it was not a bone issue. The doctor that looked at me including my gym teacher and nurse told me that had to get a MRI this was news i didnt want to hear. Well since all three accidents happen in school thats who's insurance i was going to use. The bad thing about that is the orthopedic doctor that the doctor told me to go to does not take third party insurance. well those days i stayed out of school were very hard . I missed all of my friends and even the school work. thats funnie because if you know me i don't like to do work all day... Being in school makes my day it was hard going with out messing with steve in first period getting itto deep convo's wit deedee in 2nd period goofing around with aspen devar and charles in math class messin with the bettays in gym not understandin in science talkin bout ppl at the lunch table wit aj cindi adrianna, jokin around wit ppl in coach hanford class and my fave class of all ceramics so this gave me a reality check because i know that when graduation comes imma miss all of my friends and the tymes weve had love all my 09ers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

New baby

so this morning at 5 oclock in the morning my sister(alycia) was complaining of pain. i thought she was crazy because she has been saying today is the day for the last couple days now. so when she was huffin and puffin i kinda realized that today could be the day. so i gave her my phone still half sleep and she called 911 . for them to be trying to answer many phone calls they were askin alot of question. then i got the call, my cousin told me my sister wanted me to call her. i thought this girl got there and had a false alarm. well i called and called but the hospital kept puting me through the loop. when ib finally got in touch with her she told me that she had the baby. in my family i got all boys and one girl. but now i got another girl im so happy my sister had a girl out of all of my nephews. so that was my day im sittin g in the hospital now welcomingin Ahnaya in to the world her middle name is not yet determined i want it to me yasmine after one of my close friends Tyana my sister in law wants to name he zariah i said she should have two middle names like alot of people so to me she will be called AHNAYA YASMINE ZARIAH THORNTON............ BORN 6:22 ON FEB 18 2009 09 ALL Day lol...........

THE BETTAY'S

So Everyone is always asking what the heck is a bettay and what they don't know is that the bettays was never a big group lol . Last year I was calling my friend (Radiah) bettay and my other two friends jumped in what is a bettay we had to explain that it was a word said on a show(Ameriac's next top model) used in a skit. well since me and Ra'diah were watching it together on the phone we started calling each other it 7th grade. so when they heard that they wanted to be down so then we added adrianna and tyana but the bettays did't stop there. our senior year in gym 4th period four of my friends asked the same question so we told the story and that added four new bettays(didn't have pix of them) sam messner, aliccia hans jennifer caruso and nataile p i love them all much so shout out to all the bettay and the wanna be bettays lol

"GOOD FRIENds ARE LIKE StaRS.........You Dont AlwaYs See TheM BuT You KNo THeIr THERE"

This was a Quote that i found on line about 1 year ago. This quote describes to me what a true friendship is. I have always thought that a true friend is one that you hang with all the time. So when my friends wouldn't be around me 24/7 i thought they were bad friends. then i found this quote. to me this quote means that your friends don't have to be near you or with you to be your friend. i have a friend that i feel is like a family member that was removed and i found them again in 7Th grade. Her name is Ra'Diah. when she started my school of lms i was one of the first people to talk to her. she had my first period math class of ms. Tuttle. From that day one we have been the best of friends. She was not like all of my other friends, she was unique (and still is). When i had a problem i went to her and ditto i still do .when i crushed on some one i told her when she crushed on some she told me. Ra'diah got so know around my house my sister calls her sister and her mom calls me her daughter. we were real close back then we watched T.v on the phone together. some people don't know but that started the famous bettays. we were watching Tyra banks show America's next top model and every since then she has been and always bee my sister (bffl) The reason i put this quote and ra'diah together is because now we are seniors and we don't see that much of each other and when we graduate its going to get even worse but i know like the qote says we will always be friends and when i need her she will be there and vice verse i love you always Ra'Diah B-B,Bettay Mahan... :)

People now-a-days

Today has been a bad day for me. It all started in gym class we had fitness day that was problem number 1, then when we started to walk we listened to music, the music wasnt the type of music i always listen to. i had no problem listening to that type of music (rock) my problem was that there was no other type of music mixed in. my school is a very mixed school we have different cultures all around and not everyone listens to (rock) well i was madd because i had to listen to it for about 20-30 min so when we went to get dressed i had my opinon and some people didn't like it. They felt as though i was being racist against they people that listen to the music and she said i quote" not everyone listens to rap music" we started to argue my irst problem with that statement was that i was not sayin that we had to listen to RAP music but as she said not everyone listens top ROCK music so why was that all that was played . I believe people should be able to listen to what they want but not were others have to listen to if you are not going to be diverse then bring your own i pod... there is a station that not only plays rap, r&b or rock but it plays music that is popular in all three types so why couldnt it be like that ... i understand people felt i made a big deal out of it but i didnt she started to agure with me and im the type of person that will always agure back with mom dad uncle aunt cosin teacher friend so i just dont understand people in how they never want to see where others are coming from

the question is AN i WRONG FOR FEELING THIS WAY

Tymes Are hard

A lot of people say times are getting hard but what they don't understand is that for me times have always been hard. My life was never easy. I grew up living with just my mom no dad. The bad part about it is that my dad never lived more then 15 min away. I always feel some type of way because he was there for my brothers and sisters but when i came along(Age 2) he left . He would rater get a drink in then go to work and help the family that he made. I was living with my grandma as my mom worked her tail off to make ends meet. My brother and sister to me had everything. A house with there own rooms and stuff they did not have to want because there was two pay checks in the household. now-a-days i have to wait for or never get what i want, because my mom is a single mother doing her best. I just feel that i was a true mistake. my mom had her tubes tied but i still was born so i think that life is unfair. I have to go through a lot and the one person that was my life isn't here anymore that is my GRANDMA, she was the best, she is missed everyday but will never be forgotten. I think if i was to have her by my side life wouldn't be so bad being called names and being fat and deep voiced wouldn't matter but god needed an angel and even though i lost her i think she was the best candidate.........................